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collections from FOREVER 21 :)

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"Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer"
-My Paper Heart by The All-American Rejects


"I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
And so go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize,
I'm here"
-Midnight Highway by Daphne Loves Derby

Late Night Complaint

Ya Allah kenapa sih ya akhir akhir ini cobaanya beraaaaat banget? Aduh maaf ya Allah kalau saya mengeluh terus, tapi seriusan deh .
Okay, now i just wanna write about my problems.

Firstly, it's about him. Actually I'm not so comfortable with this topic, but i really wanna share it.
As you all know, he's no longer single. It hurts more than you or even myself ever thought, you know why? because i never know if i was too deep to fall for him. i never realize that. I thought he would be just like another crush of mine, if i cant get him i'll get over him soon enough, but in fact i cant hardly forget him. Even my friends said that i'm not that into him, he's just a crush for fun. Oh now how i wish that he really just a crush for fun, but now i'm pretty sure he's not. I like him more than i ever thought.

Second, it's about school. Oh my, now school is just like a hell! I didnt felt this in my first year, why do i now?
Maybe it's because i love my first year so much that it seems i cant live my school life in this second year. My previous class is where i belong. They are my family whether they know it or not. And also in this second year the lessons are getting harder, the teachers are more scary and serious in this second grade.

The third problem is, IGCSE result will be reported soon! ......................................................
Now i just wanna be invisible. I wanna run from the reality.
okay guys, wish me luck, please pray for the best results, and i wish you all the goods for you too.

i'm feeling exhausted and dead.
it's like my life does not belong to me anymore
i feel like a robot which my life controlled by someone who hates me
and that one wants me to suffer.

oh no, i know.
it's all my fault, i let myself overjoyed, so that i forgot how the pressure feels like.

Great Vacation:) Broken Heart:(

My vacation was very very greeaaatt! Bali is a wonderland, a place where I can found my happiness : beach, sea, tourists, cutie thingies, etc. Ya Allah, I thank You the most! Thanks for letting me to visit your creation, it's so pretty wonderful. No wonder I adore You, You Are sucha great artist!

Great vacation and broken heart. What a perfect combination, Laughs and Tears. Happy and Sad, why are they so inseparable. I meant, why can't I just taste the happiness without any sadness?

Yes, my crush is not single anymore, he already got his love, and his love is not me, no wonder why. Somehow, I know it will happens, but I never thought it will happens when I just getting closer to him, or I thought I was.

I love vacation, so does I love him. I'll miss my vacation, so does I'll miss him. My vacation will over soon, can I over him?

Can't Wait

Vacation, huh? Uhm...well, this vacation my family have planed to go to BALI YEAAY! Haha I've been in Bali before ofcourse, but it already long time ago, and I miss Bali. Ya know, I always love beach and sea, even just to hear the sound of sea water on the beach already make me happy:). soo I just can't wait!

1.00 AM

I always hate being awake and knowing how late it is. I really really wanna close my eyes right now but I hardly can't. Tomorrow I'll get my report and I really freaking out, cause I know I'm not so success this year with my academic stuffs and I do regret it. Now, I just hoping that I'll get my best result tomorrow, and I'll get SCIENCE CLASS , without placement test first. And I'm sure if I get it all, my parents will happy and proud of me, there's nothing more important for me than make my parents happy :)

It Hurts But It May Be The Only Way

"Nothing Lasts Forever"

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

I Hate You Jerk!

I TOTALLY HATE YOU! AND I REGRET THAT I DID LOVE YOU, YOU WASTING MY TIME.
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
because you already hurt me

Shit

hey you,

do you know if you already driving me insane

all day, I kept my eyes on my laptop screen

Waiting your name appears in my online contacts list on my messenger

Or waiting you to online on facebook

Searching for your any new activities on my facebook home or my notifications

Then I clicked on your name in my messenger contacts list and type nothing,

Wondering if you would say hi to me 

And all those things are useless and meaningless

Cause you never realize it

I never ever let my heart to be yours

But it's like my heart didn't care how much I say no

It stills running after you

And begging for your love, or even just your attention

I've said to myself over and over again to forget about you

But my heart stills can't get you out

It's like my heart doesn't belong to me anymore, but it's yours

And I hate it

Because I hate you 

Because you will never know if you're the one who hold my heart

You'll never know

more quizzes

Quizzes Girls Games

hey I'm not silly! But I am hardly take things seriously, everythings, in any conditions, it had to be something that makes me laugh. I think that's one of my problem

Quizzes Girls Games

HAHA get over from who?

Quizzes Girls Games

yes mom, I love you

Fun Quizzes

I just followed dillut taking some quizzes and I got these unexpected results!

Quizzes Girls Games

Quizzes Girls Games

Quizzes Girls Games

OW MY GOD I CAN ONLY WISH ALL OF THESE RESULTS MAY COMING TRUE IN MY REAL LIFE, IF THEY ARE I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER!

I cried when I posted this

Do you know how much I love ..







Our time together ..







Embarrassing, but we'll gonna miss it

Love is ..

"FRIENDS ARE LIKE WALLS SOMETIMES YOU LEAN ON THEM AND SOMETIMES ITS JUST ENOUGH TO KNOW THEY ARE THERE"

Now I've Said It

Dedicated For No One

Looking at your back is my daily routine that I'll never missed
Singing your song is the only time when my voice sounds better
Taking your picture is my favorite way to use camera
Writing you a letter is what I always do in late night
Thinking of you is my bedtime story
Praying for you is the only useful thing I could ever do for you
Loving you is the one thing that I won't regret
Being with you is the only thing I would dying for

Telling you about my feeling is the only truth I'll never dare to tell you, because
Losing you is the worst thing I could ever imagine

--

okay, I don't know from where my inspiration come to me when I wrote this,
this poetry is for no one, I can't find one exactly name for me to dedicated this.

late night thought

MIDNIGHT HIGHWAY
Daphne Loves Derby

Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
This idle hour just wont pass
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
And your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
Autumn's amber red shadows dance
I miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone

And so go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize, I'm here

I'm thinking of your vague reply
So I can understand
Why we put this at rest
Why we forget to
Say that we were leaving
And say that we were sorry
The past remains unspoken
As this vacant night is dying
But I still miss your summer perfume
This cold air brings in such a distance to us
Such a painful distance
And I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me

What do you think?

well, when everyone tell their definitions of love, I started to thinking about what does love means to me. And this is my thought of love:

LOVE IS NOT ALL ABOUT KNOWING, LOVING, HAVING SOMEONE

BUT IT IS ABOUT CARING, GIVING, WITHOUT HOPING ANYTHING IN REWARD.

Gosh

examinations make my life sucks, I hate it.

lalala

Thank you God, you put him into my life
I know he is not perfect like You
But, his presence is already perfect for me
He isn't handsome, or cool, or charming
He walks just like the way he loves to
He never try to be somebody, even I ever ask him to
He always listens to me
Even when I thought he didn't
He cares about me
Although he never showed it, I already knew it.
Sometimes he acted like a child
And at that time I knew he needed me
He also wants me to care about him
And I didn't mind, never mind

Sometimes I thought he was too good to be beside me
I never care about him as much as he cares about me
I don't know why I could be so unfair to him
And I don't have any idea why he never let me go

Well whatever that is, I love him.

Please

Okay, now I'm crying because of many things. Oh God, please let me get over it. Everything's just keep buzzing in my head. I want to cheer up. God, let my heart in peace. Why do I could be in this mess? Maybe I'm just overjoyed, so I'm not ready for suffering.

OMG, Jason Mraz is so cute.
-intermezzo-

Yelping for HELP!

I Just Wanna Say ..

I miss you

Depp!

Ow My Gosh, I have watched the movie "Cry - Baby" and it was a great movie. It is stared by a freakin hot gorgeous man, JOHNNY DEPP! And I can't stand whenever I saw him acted, he's just so perfect! with his acting.

I love that face

And then I just experiencing flash back, when I was watched Depp's other movies. And again, he amazed me all the time. Charlie and the Chocolates Factory, Sweeney Todd, Sleepy Hollow, Pirates of the Carribean. Ow shit he's totally sexy! And the one best thing about him that I love is I love his bad boy look, even he also looks great to be a mature man.

Well well well

Today I went to Grand Indonesia and as usual I took a look at forever 21 and just knew that it is sale up to 50%, so I felt foolish if I missed it. After I look into the whole store, I got nothing. Nothing had caught my eyes, "wow", and seems worth to me. And I arrived at home, I search the forever 21's on the internet and I found these cutie dresses:

And this yellow watch

Well tempting enough, but I didn't saw it when I was in its store this afternoon.
Good night!:)

This is why I can't close my eyes tonight

I can give you love

I can give you my heart

I want to make you smile

I want to be the one you cry on

I would do anything stupid for you

Because I love you, moron.

I want to call you as my boy

Not for show off

But because I want you to be the one I can depend on

Because I want to be the one important thing for you

But why don't you ever look at me, love?

Young Love

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2.For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 12 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.


1. If someone says "is this okay?" you say..
Minority - Greenday

2. What would best describe your personality?
Hold On - Jonas Brothers

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
I Melt With You - Jason Mraz (I always melted whenever he's around)

4. How do you feel today?
I Miss You - Jamestown Story (hahahah iya banget deh)

5. What is your motto?
Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold

6. What is your life's purpose?
Hysteria - Muse

7. What do your friends think of you?
Broken Man - Boys Like Girls (I'm not broke)

8. What do you think about very often?
Love Games - Lady Gaga

9. What is 2+2?
Fluorescent Adolescent - Arctic Monkeys

10. What do you think of your best friend?
Soldier's Poem - Muse

11. What do you think of the person you like?
Infatuation - Maroon 5 (iyaaaaaaa banget men)

12. What is your life story?
Hate That I Love You - Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Kembali - RAN

14. What will they play at your funeral?
Someday - John Legend

15. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Love Will Find a Way - Disney (romantic enough)

16. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Everything's Magic - Angels and Airwaves (wow my ipod does understands me)

17. What is your hobby/interest?
Decode - Paramore

18. What is your biggest secret?
Misery Business - Paramore

19. What's the worst thing that could happen?
St. Jimmy - Greenday

20. What makes you cry?
Everything - Michael Buble (I'm sure it isn't everything that makes me cry)

21.What makes you laugh?
Mr. Brightside - The Killers

22. What is the one thing you regret?
I Miss You - Incubus (a bit)

23. Will you ever get married?
All I Need Is You - The Click Five

24. What scares you most?
Jangan Pergi - Gruvi (yes it does)

25 What will you post this as?
Young Love - Mystery Jets

You know how it feels, don't you

yes, it's killing me

Huaaa, now I'm sitting in front of my computer with my mind full of disappointed and regrets. You know what, JAMIROQUAI IS COMING TO MY COUNTRY AND I JUST MISSED IT! do you know how bad that it feels?

Now, I can't say any words anymore, I'M RUNNING OUT OF WORDS! I wish this chance is not once in my lifetime, I wish there will be another performance of JAMIROQUAI in my country and in the right time.

Big Girls Don't Cry, Right?

Heeeeey you guys! In my writing this time I wanna tell about my girl's story. So my friend just have a little confession about her feeling to a boy who had take her heart and her time of course. Because of some reasons, my friend didn't feel well about the boy she likes, so she decided to tell him about her feeling. And my friend just had found out that her crush was already knew about her feelings to him for a while, but he didn't avoid my friend or anything that makes him annoyed to being around from my friend. My friend's crush just stay cool as nothing happened. That's nice I think, really nice. As much as I know that if a boy/girl knew that someone likes him, but he didn't likes her back, he'll avoid the girl, and don't want to be around that girl. So my friend's crush is so nice since he didn't avoid my friend. But the sad part is, yeah, the boy that my friend's love doesn't loves her back, he loves another girl. And my friend accepted that wholeheartedly, and that's my girl! I love you daaarl.

So, how about my own love story? Emm, there's nothing to tell. I have a crush, a good-looking boy. He's funny, attractive, and friendly enough, but again, I don't know him well, but my feeling to him is so strong, I don't know why. I know him, and he knows me, just that, nothing more. I already tried to be close with him, but it stills getting me nowhere. I still can't figure it out about who he really is. And I think I wasn't his type and he feels nothing into me, and that's what I called pathetic.

Hey! So I'm here and don't know what to tell. I think I wanna start with my school life first, well, now I have to through mid-term-test as usual since it's been in the middle of semester. And I was sucks! I was already study hard, seriously, but yeah as usual I always stuck with all the fuckin problems on the paper. I thought I could be better, but I still messed up with my tests, but I don't know the result yet, so I still got hope, wish me the best.

I'm kinda interest with one guy, he is TYSON RITTER, yes he's the vocalist of the band The All American Rejects. I'm listen to this band, but I'm not really a big fan of it. I've just realized that Tyson is so charming, he has that unique-adorable-perfect face! I realized it when I watched their clip for 'Gives You Hell', that song is pretty good. He has dazzling eyes that makes me melting, his cheekbones are just perfect, and his messy hairs are complete his look,

and I completely like him for sure. His voice is quite sexy, sexy enough for singing womanizer cover.

Well yeah, I was surprised when I knew that they're covering womanizer from Britney Spears. I was curious and I watched it, and my first comment is they're way much better than Britney, even Tyson is more sexy for me than Britney. .

It's 00:42 right now, and I'm starting to feel sleepy, and I'd better to. Since it's difficult to me to feel sleepy when it's late. Bye :D

My all-time Boooys!

I spent these past month with amused myself with music. I began to listen to greenday again after I didn't for a while. I listen to the whole album American Idiot and then I watched Bullet In a Bible and they were so amazing! Billie Joe, Mike Dirnt, and Tre Cool are my long live idols. I like Mike Dirnt as bassist in the band more than the others two. He is so macho and cool, I love his performance with his bass. I claim him as my second father! It doesn't mean I dislike Billie Joe and Tre Cool, they're very great, Billy Joe is totally an attractive man, and Tre Cool is the unique one. However, greenday is so fuckin cool, I can't wait for their new albums with their cool songs. I want to see Billie Joe and friends again. I LOVE GREENDAY!

Isn't he cool?

Yeah they're the best rockers I've ever know. They heart their music and I love the way they play their music. Standiing applause and four thumbs up for greenday.

Yeah I also love this band. I like their music. First time I heard their music I kind of curious with the band, who playing this? that was the first thing in my mind, and then I googled it. I did not this freak of this band for the first time. When they release their latest album The Black Parade I began to admired them. Gerard Way the vocalist, I think he has a good and unique voice, so once I hear the song I can recognize the song is MCR's. Emo band? yes indeed, although I don't into emo, but I still appreciate them. My Chemical Romance also a big fan of Greenday, yeeah it makes me more like them. And again, I love the bassist in the band, Mikey Way. He's the younger brother of Gee Way the vocalist, Mikey is a cute guy and he don't speak much I think.

cute? absolutely.

Boys Like Girls? What the ----, maybe some of you will think like that, but me not. I love them at the first sight! ahahaha. When I saw their clip for The Great Escape, I like them at that time. They're good, very good, but some of my friends don't like them. They said this band is gay, and then I'm going angry. Their songs are easy listening for me, and I go dance with their songs. I don't know when this band will show up in my country, and I still have big wish for that. I love all of them. The vocalist Martin Johnson who wrote most of the whole album with his great voice, Paul Digiovanni as the lead guitar and I think he's quite good looking, Bryan Donahue the bassist, and John Keefe the drummer. They're all great!

Wuhuuuy yeaah aren't they all great men? Yes they're my man. I love them, I love their music, and I love the way they play and heart their music. Oya, one thing, I love their slow song. Like for Greenday, I love Wake Me Up When September Ends, for My Chemical Romance, I love Disenchanted and Cancer, and for Boys Like Girls, I love Thunder, this one is not really slow. These songs can turn me down become so mellow haha.

I HEART THEM ALL!

MESIS!

Heeeey all! it's been a long time since my last post abou my wishlist, and yaa, I'm still not getting one of those things. Tonight I'm gonna talk about what kept me busy these last few weeks. Jadi gini yaa di sekolah ada kegiatan namanya subsi, semua 10th graders harus milih salah satu subsi dari sekian banyak subsi yang ada. And ofcourse I picked MEDIA SISWA YEAAH! Abis milih satu subsi, mulai deh minggu minggu kader yang forgodsake menyita waktu bangeet and bikin capek. Gue kira dulu mesis tuh asik nyantai dan lain lain, gue bener tentang mesis tuh asik - alhamdulillah- tapi tentang nyantai tuh agak salah dikit yaa, karena kita memang ga nyantai selama minggu minggu kader! Tugas tugas bejibun numpuk meeeen. Gue sampe di rumah gak belajar, di kelas tidur, pokoknya waktu gue tersita untuk tugas mesis. Hem oke deh alibi doang sih, emang sebenernya gue males huehehue -oke gajelas ya-. Tapi gue gak nyesel men milih mesis, kita emang dituntut untuk mengerjakan tugas se-kreatif mungkin sesuai deadline yang di tentukan beeh asik deh kalo inget masa masa sibuk jungkir balik pas kader. Kita udah pusing stress mikirin tugas kader sampe nangis trus sakit weh heboh deh.
Hari sabtu-minggu kemaren, kita ngikutin acara pelantikan gabungan sub-seksi di taman perkemahan halimun, di Bogor. Tempatnya? Gila men gue gak tau ya if there's such place like that in my country, first impression sih kayak tempat syutingnya TWILIGHT, yang scene bella sm edward ngobrol di atas pohon. Hutan tempat pelantikannya tuh mirip kayak itu, pohon pinus tinggi tinggi oke deh. Gue udah cengar cengir aja liat tempatnya yang oks banget, sampe pas gue harus naik ke atas, ke area pelantikan mesis yang emang sih ga tinggi-tinggi banget, dan UNTUNGNYA gak tinggi-tinggi banget karena segitu aja, gue seriiiiiiing banget jatoh. Yaampun gue gatau apa yang salah sama badan atau kaki gue yang bikin gue jatoh terus, gue sampe pengen nangis saking seringnya jatooh. Hoaa kan malu banget ya jatoh-jatoh mulu kayak orang sakit ataksia or whatever you call it.
Pelantikannya asik dan lumayan bikin sedih. Asiknya yaa gue sama angkatan gue bisa bareng-bareng ngadepin kakak-kakak kelas, makan dan tidur bareng didalam satu tenda, asik deh yaampun. Gue sedihnya tuuuh karena gue bingung kenapa sih ga semua angkatan gue dilantik, kan kesannya angkatan gue gak maksimal, padahal meeen kita udah pol polan deh semasa kader dan pelantikan. Trus ada kakak kelas yang nangis, aduh gile dah gue jadi ikutan nangis gara-gara ngerasa bersalah dan gaenak. Yah begitu deh suka duka selama kader dan pelantikan.

Buat MESIS 2011 tetep solid yaaa jangan liquid apalagi gas, oke yaa gue ngelawak. Gue takut nanti jadi pada sombong deh, tapi enggak kan yakaaaan. Kita bareng terus yaa sampe pada jadi alumni till the end of time deh pokoknya. okeokeokeeee I love MESIS 2011!

Fashion Items Wishlists ;D

whoaa after doing window shopping for this couple of weeks, I've seen much good items, and I want it all so much. I want these:

aren't those nice and unique? I love the hoods and the vest so bad, may I have those all, mom? :)

I also want these snickers and sandal

gorgeus right? yeaa i really really want these but, okay, I don't have enough money to have it all, and my parents will not let me to use money extravagantly. How about that one, mom, may I? hihi I'm sure the answer would be not or later. Later, after I get good mark on my exam or worse, I must to get straight A on IGCSE, or I'll have it as my birthday presents! I like that, but my birthday is on October and it's still January now, so I have to wait ten more months :(

Oow I think I'm over pesimist, I think if I'm doing nice, I'll be able to buy it next two months haha just keep prayin for it.