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"Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer"
-My Paper Heart by The All-American Rejects


"I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
And so go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize,
I'm here"
-Midnight Highway by Daphne Loves Derby

Late Night Complaint

Ya Allah kenapa sih ya akhir akhir ini cobaanya beraaaaat banget? Aduh maaf ya Allah kalau saya mengeluh terus, tapi seriusan deh .
Okay, now i just wanna write about my problems.

Firstly, it's about him. Actually I'm not so comfortable with this topic, but i really wanna share it.
As you all know, he's no longer single. It hurts more than you or even myself ever thought, you know why? because i never know if i was too deep to fall for him. i never realize that. I thought he would be just like another crush of mine, if i cant get him i'll get over him soon enough, but in fact i cant hardly forget him. Even my friends said that i'm not that into him, he's just a crush for fun. Oh now how i wish that he really just a crush for fun, but now i'm pretty sure he's not. I like him more than i ever thought.

Second, it's about school. Oh my, now school is just like a hell! I didnt felt this in my first year, why do i now?
Maybe it's because i love my first year so much that it seems i cant live my school life in this second year. My previous class is where i belong. They are my family whether they know it or not. And also in this second year the lessons are getting harder, the teachers are more scary and serious in this second grade.

The third problem is, IGCSE result will be reported soon! ......................................................
Now i just wanna be invisible. I wanna run from the reality.
okay guys, wish me luck, please pray for the best results, and i wish you all the goods for you too.

i'm feeling exhausted and dead.
it's like my life does not belong to me anymore
i feel like a robot which my life controlled by someone who hates me
and that one wants me to suffer.

oh no, i know.
it's all my fault, i let myself overjoyed, so that i forgot how the pressure feels like.

Great Vacation:) Broken Heart:(

My vacation was very very greeaaatt! Bali is a wonderland, a place where I can found my happiness : beach, sea, tourists, cutie thingies, etc. Ya Allah, I thank You the most! Thanks for letting me to visit your creation, it's so pretty wonderful. No wonder I adore You, You Are sucha great artist!

Great vacation and broken heart. What a perfect combination, Laughs and Tears. Happy and Sad, why are they so inseparable. I meant, why can't I just taste the happiness without any sadness?

Yes, my crush is not single anymore, he already got his love, and his love is not me, no wonder why. Somehow, I know it will happens, but I never thought it will happens when I just getting closer to him, or I thought I was.

I love vacation, so does I love him. I'll miss my vacation, so does I'll miss him. My vacation will over soon, can I over him?

Can't Wait

Vacation, huh? Uhm...well, this vacation my family have planed to go to BALI YEAAY! Haha I've been in Bali before ofcourse, but it already long time ago, and I miss Bali. Ya know, I always love beach and sea, even just to hear the sound of sea water on the beach already make me happy:). soo I just can't wait!

1.00 AM

I always hate being awake and knowing how late it is. I really really wanna close my eyes right now but I hardly can't. Tomorrow I'll get my report and I really freaking out, cause I know I'm not so success this year with my academic stuffs and I do regret it. Now, I just hoping that I'll get my best result tomorrow, and I'll get SCIENCE CLASS , without placement test first. And I'm sure if I get it all, my parents will happy and proud of me, there's nothing more important for me than make my parents happy :)

It Hurts But It May Be The Only Way

"Nothing Lasts Forever"

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

I Hate You Jerk!

I TOTALLY HATE YOU! AND I REGRET THAT I DID LOVE YOU, YOU WASTING MY TIME.
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
because you already hurt me

Shit

hey you,

do you know if you already driving me insane

all day, I kept my eyes on my laptop screen

Waiting your name appears in my online contacts list on my messenger

Or waiting you to online on facebook

Searching for your any new activities on my facebook home or my notifications

Then I clicked on your name in my messenger contacts list and type nothing,

Wondering if you would say hi to me 

And all those things are useless and meaningless

Cause you never realize it

I never ever let my heart to be yours

But it's like my heart didn't care how much I say no

It stills running after you

And begging for your love, or even just your attention

I've said to myself over and over again to forget about you

But my heart stills can't get you out

It's like my heart doesn't belong to me anymore, but it's yours

And I hate it

Because I hate you 

Because you will never know if you're the one who hold my heart

You'll never know

more quizzes

Quizzes Girls Games

hey I'm not silly! But I am hardly take things seriously, everythings, in any conditions, it had to be something that makes me laugh. I think that's one of my problem

Quizzes Girls Games

HAHA get over from who?

Quizzes Girls Games

yes mom, I love you

Fun Quizzes

I just followed dillut taking some quizzes and I got these unexpected results!

Quizzes Girls Games

Quizzes Girls Games

Quizzes Girls Games

OW MY GOD I CAN ONLY WISH ALL OF THESE RESULTS MAY COMING TRUE IN MY REAL LIFE, IF THEY ARE I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER!

I cried when I posted this

Do you know how much I love ..







Our time together ..







Embarrassing, but we'll gonna miss it

Love is ..

"FRIENDS ARE LIKE WALLS SOMETIMES YOU LEAN ON THEM AND SOMETIMES ITS JUST ENOUGH TO KNOW THEY ARE THERE"

Now I've Said It

Dedicated For No One

Looking at your back is my daily routine that I'll never missed
Singing your song is the only time when my voice sounds better
Taking your picture is my favorite way to use camera
Writing you a letter is what I always do in late night
Thinking of you is my bedtime story
Praying for you is the only useful thing I could ever do for you
Loving you is the one thing that I won't regret
Being with you is the only thing I would dying for

Telling you about my feeling is the only truth I'll never dare to tell you, because
Losing you is the worst thing I could ever imagine

--

okay, I don't know from where my inspiration come to me when I wrote this,
this poetry is for no one, I can't find one exactly name for me to dedicated this.

late night thought

MIDNIGHT HIGHWAY
Daphne Loves Derby

Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
This idle hour just wont pass
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
And your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
Autumn's amber red shadows dance
I miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone

And so go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize, I'm here

I'm thinking of your vague reply
So I can understand
Why we put this at rest
Why we forget to
Say that we were leaving
And say that we were sorry
The past remains unspoken
As this vacant night is dying
But I still miss your summer perfume
This cold air brings in such a distance to us
Such a painful distance
And I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me

What do you think?

well, when everyone tell their definitions of love, I started to thinking about what does love means to me. And this is my thought of love:

LOVE IS NOT ALL ABOUT KNOWING, LOVING, HAVING SOMEONE

BUT IT IS ABOUT CARING, GIVING, WITHOUT HOPING ANYTHING IN REWARD.

Gosh

examinations make my life sucks, I hate it.

lalala

Thank you God, you put him into my life
I know he is not perfect like You
But, his presence is already perfect for me
He isn't handsome, or cool, or charming
He walks just like the way he loves to
He never try to be somebody, even I ever ask him to
He always listens to me
Even when I thought he didn't
He cares about me
Although he never showed it, I already knew it.
Sometimes he acted like a child
And at that time I knew he needed me
He also wants me to care about him
And I didn't mind, never mind

Sometimes I thought he was too good to be beside me
I never care about him as much as he cares about me
I don't know why I could be so unfair to him
And I don't have any idea why he never let me go

Well whatever that is, I love him.

Please

Okay, now I'm crying because of many things. Oh God, please let me get over it. Everything's just keep buzzing in my head. I want to cheer up. God, let my heart in peace. Why do I could be in this mess? Maybe I'm just overjoyed, so I'm not ready for suffering.

OMG, Jason Mraz is so cute.
-intermezzo-

Yelping for HELP!